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HOPE

Today, I realized something very important. Heck, I would go as far as saying that this might even be life-changing.

I AM HOPEFUL.

I was listening to the remix of Unthinkable by Alicia Keys and Drake when it hit me.

One day, I will fall in love again. It won’t be tomorrow or next week, but it will happen, eventually. And when I do, I plan to fall madly, passionately, unabashedly, head-over-heels in love—AGAIN.

I’m saying again because I already felt that way once. I’m positive that I already had a great love in this lifetime—but just because I did doesn’t mean I can’t have another one.

I’ve been so resistant to even just the thought of finding new love and I think I’ve finally figured out why. While I didn’t want to settle for someone that would make me feel less than I did for him, I was more scared that I might actually find someone who would make me feel MORE. I was convinced that my past relationship was more epic than everyone else’s—or at least right up there with the greats. (Think Romeo and Juliet, Liz Taylor and Richard Burton, Carrie and Big, etc.) I still am. I guess only time will tell whether I’m right or wrong… But now I know that it doesn’t even matter.

I don’t know what it’s going to be like next time I fall in love. It might be just as great, or it might just turn out to be beyond-my-wildest-dreams-GREATER. But whatever it may be, it’s not going to rewrite history and change how much I felt for great love # 1.

That’s not necessarily bad for great love # 2 or 3 or so on…

I didn’t say all those things because I’m not over him, but because I have finally accepted that it’s over between us. FINALLY.

I admit, I’m not totally over him—but I’m getting there. I say that not in a pathetic, self-soothing manner, but in an honest to goodness HOPEFUL way. I think a nudge in the right direction might be all I need at this point.

I know there might still be a handful of wrong men the universe will throw in my direction before I get to be with THE ONE, but I look forward to them all. I’m just so excited to feel something for someone else again.

I can’t fucking wait.=)

*****

UNTHINKABLE (Alicia Keys ft. Drake)

Moment of honesty
Someone’s gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I’m gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now
(You should say it right now)

You ready?

You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
(I deserve it, I think it deserve it..Let it go)
It’s becoming something that’s impossible to ignore
And I can’t take it
(I can’t take it)

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)

I know you once said to me
“This is exactly how it should feel when it’s meant to be”
Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?
If we gon’ do something ’bout it
We should do it right now
(We should do it right now)

Bay, uh

You give me a feeling that I never felt before

And I deserve it, I know I deserve it
(I deserve it, I know I deserve it. Let it go)
Its becoming something that’s impossible to ignore
It’s what we make it
(It’s what we make it)

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I’m sayin’
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready I’m ready)
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready)

Yeah, sing…

Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can’t say I came prepared
I’m suspended in the air
Won’t you come be in the sky with me

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I’m sayin’
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)
If you ask me I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready)

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5 Responses to “HOPE”

  1. you’ll be just fine…as others have taken the same safe path Haze..keep the faith…i know how that feels…have good lenten retreat…;-)

    http://rohansantana.wordpress.com/2011/04/19/miuvue-eilong/

  2. I AM HOPEFUL.

    Yan lagi ako. 🙂

  3. I’m not sure if you’re aware of this, but I’m subscribed to your blog (don’t know why, but it’s probably that your works are that good ^_^).

    My, my… you sure are a hopeless romantic in disguise, huh? (had to blurt it out. It’s not a bad thing, I can assure you that, coz I am one myself)

    I guess what I really wanna say is…just take it easy. He (whoever the new guy is gonna be) will eventually come to his senses and get you. Though I’ve barely got a clue with your daily itineraries, go on with your life– go out, meet new friends, have fun (get drunk even). Change the things that needs to be changed.

    And when that day he comes into your life… It will definitely be (wait for it… waaaait for it) AWESOME!

    Good Morning ^_^’

    • Sorry for the late reply, but thank you! I am truly a hopeless romantic (no disguise whatsoever)!!!=) I appreciate the feedback!=)


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